anx·ious (the 2nd definition)

anx·ious   /ˈæŋkʃəs, ˈæŋ-/ Show Spelled[angk-shuhs, ang-] Show IPA

–adjective
1.full of mental distress or uneasiness because of fear of danger or misfortune; greatly worried; solicitous: Her parents were anxious about her poor health.
2.earnestly desirous; eager (usually fol. by an infinitive or for): anxious to please; anxious for our happiness.
3.attended with or showing solicitude or uneasiness: anxious forebodings.

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p.s. a big mahalo to all of you who are supporting me on my journey to Kauai! Yesterday was a blast! (and many thanks to my awesome mom and dad for treating all twenty one of us to an epic champagne brunch!)

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Yoga mat           √

Beach cruiser      √

Surf board         √

Guitar             √

Got all I need. 4 days and  counting...:-)

Do you have to stand up to be a surfer?

When I was in seventh grade I decided I wanted to be a surfer.  I knew nothing about it other than my dad was a long boarder back in his prime and that all the kids that did Jr.Guards were surfers.  I remember wanting to be in it sooo bad.  The kid that sat next to me in T.A. was always drawing pictures of waves and talking about it. Then my mother told me I would have to enter frigid ocean water at the crack of dawn.  I decided I'd go a different route- meaning I decided to wear everything Roxy, Rusty, and Hurley possible.  I even owned the pucca shells for a couple seasons.  All my friends were wearing cute "Wet Seal" clothing while I was sporting the boxed t-shirts and board shorts.  I don't know what it was exactly, but I just loved the idea of surfing.


The next year I went to Maui with my family and friends.  Our family friends knew the owners of HONOLUA SURF CO and so we had the great experience of learning how to surf from one of the owners. I think I stood up twice.  It was on a long board but I LOVED the feeling.  I came home and got distracted by life and kind of put the surfing thing on hold (since I didn't even own a board) but I never really forgot about it. I'd watch Blue Crush over and over again and ask myself why I wasn't trying to get out there.

Since then I have had few, but memorable surf experiences.   I have gone in my local beach backyard Newport a couple of times (and hated the freezing water) and I surfed in Santa Catalina, Panama with the locals and some guys from SonRise Surf Ministries.  Although I often get 'pushed' into the waves I am quite proud of myself when I begin to 'pump'.  Some people might not be able to picture little monkey me riding-but maaaaaan I tell you its such a good feeling standing up! This past November I gave it a shot again in Hanalei Bay, and there I was pushed into the waves again. This time I was too nervous though, and didn't do so well.


I now own both a board (soft top little baby guy) and a 4/3 Rip Curl F-Bomb wetsuit (that takes forever to get on) but I can say they haven't been put to use that often....sigh.... why is the idea of surfing so much easier than actually doing it?


So the big question is, when do I get to gain the bragging right "I am a surfer?" Am I two years away? Or two months?  Reading Surfer and Surfing  magazing and watching fuel tvmakes me a spectator, but by no means a surfer... but I like to think somewhere deep down I can eventually master the skill. Lets be honest, being called a surfer isn't neary as cool as the actual feeling of being out there, just you and God and the waves...  One day, I'll make it but for now, I am just going to keep on watching, and pray that I learn some new surfing tactics in my Hanalei home.

 Call me a poser if you want, but I belong to both Christian Surfers and Surfrider Foundation and I think they are both awesome organizations aiming to make this world a better place.

Please Pray for Daisy Love

On Saturday, I had the rad opportunity of going to a conference in LA on love, sex, and relationships. Pastor Mark Driscoll led it, and man it was captivating, funny, and inspirational.  1200 people showed up. Singles, and couples of all ages.  I walked out with some rad tools and biblical knowledge on the Song of Song's.  Have you ever read it? Its a very sensual story with such beauty and grace.  This is the conference if you want to check it out.Song of Songs Conference

On a different note.... I wanted to send a shout out prayer request.  Its actually for a complete stranger.  As many of you know, Channel Islands Surfboards is owned by Al Merrick, the Christian surfboard shaper who works with world class surfers such as Kelly Slater.  His son, Britt Merrick was at the conference we were at and is one of the pastor's at the Reality Church Carpinteria.  Britt has an awesome story, starting out as a surfer kid not knowing the awesomeness of Christ.  He eventually helped out leading bible studies at his parents house for the surf kids.  From there alongside his dad dad, he continued to shape surfboards while also shaping his life into something far greater than a sweet surf set.  He has now written a book BIG GOD that I look forward to reading.

Well, back to the prayer request.  Through learning about Britt I realize he is an awesome roll model for those Christian surfers out there. My first thought was "Man, this guy has the life" And then I came across something tragic.. his daughter Daisy Love has cancer. She has something called Wilm's tumor. They got it out, but she has ongoing chemo.  She is just a little girl and can use all the prayer she can get.  Its crazy that such a beautiful family could suffer so much.  But this family keeps their spirits high and praises God even through the storm.  I ask that even though we don't know this little girl, we pray for her and her healing.

Here is the video in which Britt talks about Psalm 61: 1-4 and the story of Daisy.

Britt Merrick My Heart is Overwhelmed

Anusara

I have a new favorite Sanskrit word; Anusara. It means, "flowing with grace" and it just seems like the perfect word to love. Today is a day I need to recognize God's abundant grace.

I hope that I can flow gracefully throughout life during both the good times, and bad.

Be still....

vice?

People often say that coffee is their 'vice'.  I admit; I cannot live without coffee. It is definitely my go to in the morning...but vice? I am not so sure...have you ever read the actual definition for vice!?

Word: vice
Pronunciation: \ˈvīs\
Function: noun
Etymology: Middle English, from Anglo-French, from Latin vitium fault, vice
Date: 14th century
Definition: 1. a : moral depravity or corruption : wickedness b : a moral fault or failing c : a habitual and usually trivial defect or shortcoming : foible

Word: cof·fee

Pronunciation: \ˈkȯ-fē, ˈkä-\
Function: noun
Usage: often attributive
Etymology: Italian & Turkish; Italian caffè, from Turkish kahve, from Arabic qahwa
Date: 1598
Definition:1 a : a beverage made by percolation, infusion, or decoction from the roasted and ground seeds of a coffee plant b : any of several Old World tropical plant

who am I to say?

some songs just speak to you. I heard this a few years back, and it still speaks volumes. He knows it's for Him.

Who am I to Say
by Hope.

Love of my life, my soul mate

You're my best friend

Part of me like breathing

Now half of me is left

Don't know anything at all

Who am I to say you love me

I don't know anything at all

And who am I to say you need me

Color me blue I'm lost in you

Don't know why I'm still waiting

Many moons have come and gone

Don't know why I'm still searching

Now you're a song I love to sing

Never thought it feels so free

Now I know what's meant to be

And that's okay with me

But who am I to say you love me

Mmmm hmmm

I don't know anything at all

And who am I to say you love me

I don't know anything at all

And who am I to say you need me

I don't know anything at all

click to listen.

February reading list

I recently purchased these books. They are all very different and I have come to love each one.

**Update! I finished Dear John! Great easy read... kinda sad..Yoga Anatomy is great! Now Im gonna try and tackle Changes that Heal.